Finally gettting my butt moving to lose the baby weight. All 3 of the babies. I've got at least 50 to lose, and that's pretty conservative. Its hard for me to realize I'm overweight, and probably considered obese. I look big, but I see people when I'm out, and I feel like Twiggy compared to them. I've never had a weight problem before. I was so skinny in high school and college, it was ridiculous. Diabetes, children and turning 30 have wreaked havoc on my body.

I know exercising and losing the weight will help me manage my blood sugars more readily, but actually getting into the habit isn't easy, esp. with 3 kids, 2 of them who aren't in school yet. God forbid I go on a walk with C and S. At least I can stick S in a stroller, he's only 21 months. C will complain about her legs hurting her after about 50 steps. If she's one on one and you get her talking about stuff, its not so bad. Otherwise, you're wanting to pull your ears off.

I need to set a goal, or several, and make sure I get some reward as I reach each goal. Don't know what those rewards will be, but I need to move towards something, rather than saying when I lose 50 lbs I will....... You fill in the blank.

I don't want to reach 40 and look like this. I want my 40s to be better than my 30s. Think that's possible? My children arrived in my 30s. I've grown as a person in my 30s. But honestly, I do look forward to my 40s. I've become much more outspoken, more fearless and more aware in my 30s. It wasn't hard to be more outspoken. Anyone who knows me will agree its one of my attributes (or it could be a negative thing, not sure).

So today, weights. Yesterday it was a long walk in the early morning. I just need to stick to it!!